Accountability

Breakfast: Cereal w/fruit, oj

Lunch: Chinese chicken salad

Dinner: Spring rolls, rice

Snack: 4 cookies

Calories: Probably around 2000.

Exercise: Walked 1 mile.

Breakfast: Scrambled egg, toast, oj

Lunch: Cheese, crackers, vitamin water

Dinner: I’m not entirely sure - there was tofu involved though. It was actually good.

Snack: 1/2 luna bar

Calories: Maybe 1400 - not sure because I don’t know how many were in dinner.

Exercise: Walked 2 miles, yoga 15 min.  Update: I did forget - Stephen says 1/2 mile extra but I think it was more like a mile. I’m very stiff & achy this morning. I think exercise is killing me.

Breakfast: Cereal w/fruit, oj

Lunch: Salad, crackers

Dinner: 2 3 spring rolls, spoonful of rice, salad (3rd was 11:30 whoops)

Snack: Banana, vitamin water

Calories: 1800

Exercise: Bike 3.5 miles, Yoga 10 min. - I’m really tired today, I think that walk broke me.

This is interesting so I thought I’d post it. (I like to foist share the information I find!) I was reading an article about reasons for gaining weight even if you are eating well & exercising. Two of the reasons, unfortunately, definitely apply to me. The first is lack of sleep. If you don’t get enough sleep your body experiences stress and stores fat more efficiently.

The second is, you’ve probably guessed, stress. It is the same thing - your body stores fat more efficiently when you are stressed. What I found particularly interesting was that stress eaters tend to prefer high-carbohydrate foods because they increase serotonin and help you feel calmer. I’ve really been craving carbohydrates. I was eating thai noodle salads from TJ’s for awhile because I was having this noodle craving. I’ve been wanting potatoes a lot lately also & I know I eat too much bread.

The very, very annoying thing about this, as I was telling Stephen yesterday, is that Jill was telling me that about stress and I didn’t believe her. What I’d like to know is how she knows this stuff. Oh well. Anyway, I am going to do yoga to relax and stretch and I think that will help - unless I get stuck in some weird yoga position.

Breakfast: Cereal w/fruit, oj

Lunch: Cheese, crackers, banana, vitamin water

Dinner: Spinach salad w/turkey

Snack string cheese

Calories: 1500

Exercise: I walked 3 miles!! All the way around Lake Merritt. Pretty cool, huh? I also got a yoga book today. It is easy yoga for old, overweight, out of shape people. I was going to start today but was very tired from walking 3 miles!

Breakfast: Toast w/pb, fruit, oj

Lunch: Cottage cheese w/vegetables, crackers

Dinner: Salad w/vegetables

Calories: 1150

Exercise: None. I’m afraid I have hyphema from poking my eye. If you have it you aren’t supposed to move a lot so I was being careful today just in case.

Breakfast: Toast w/pb, oj

Lunch: Chicken salad, crackers

Dinner: Turkey burger, salad

Snack: Luna bar, vitamin water

Calories: 1400

Exercise: I didn’t do anything today. I’ve had a horrible headache most of the day - either sinus or poking myself in the eye (see Texeira blog for gory details) - I’m not sure which.

Breakfast: Toast w/pb, fruit, oj

Lunch: Cottage cheese w/beans, crackers, vitamin water

Dinner: Turkey patty, salad w/lots of vegetables

Snack: Luna bar

Calories: 1650

Exercise: Biked 5 miles.

I’m feeling much better today (I have to say that so no one yells at me). I’m kidding - I really do feel better. I just have bad days sometimes .  .  .

Breakfast: Cereal w/fruit, oj

Lunch: Cottage cheese w/vegetables, crackers

Dinner: Chicken salad (didn’t feel like going to the store for turkey)

Snack: Luna Bar

Calories: 1400

Exercise: Walked 1 mile, biked 2.5 miles.

I did not want to walk (or ride my bike). I went to the Marina and set in the car for 15 min. before I could make myself get out & walk. And that was only thanks to Eleanor. Eleanor who some of you may ask? Roosevelt - You must do the thing you think you cannot do. That is my second favorite quote & the funny thing is I had read it on someone’s blog before I left to walk this morning, which I assume is why it popped into my mind while I was sitting watching all the nice people walk. Anyway you may be wondering if I felt better after walking - No, I felt worse actually. But I did it.

Now this is what I think - that I should automatically lose 2 lbs every time I do something like that & every time I go to the store & don’t buy a “bad” thing to eat. Whoever is in control of such things really needs to get busy because clearly the process is not working correctly. Of course if it was I’d probably weigh less than Jenny which wouldn’t be a great idea!

I have cried every single day for the last 107 days. I sleep poorly, I panic when I have to go into the store or anyplace for that matter. Oh I forgot, this is called depression. It will pass. Maybe in another 107 days? Sarcastic little person aren’t I? Guess what folks? It ain’t working. That bright smiling face you see is a front. Well maybe it isn’t bright or smiling, nevertheless it’s still a front.

As Dad says, talk is cheap. I haven’t just been talking. I’ve been doing a lot of really good stuff. Eating better, exercising, etc., etc. (I hate etc., it always strikes me as saying, I’m to lazy to think. I am.). Things are supposed to get easier. The universe is supposed to open up and meet me half-way. Life shouldn’t suck. Somebody, somewhere has seriously screwed things up & I’m starting to get annoyed. I realize gaining 4 lbs is pretty insignificant - I guess it was just the straw that .  .  . you get the idea. I guess this leaves me where I started this morning - you must do the thing you think you cannot do. That’s the only answer I have right now. Maybe that’s my roadmap.

Breakfast: Toast w/pb, oj, fruit

Lunch: Cottage cheese, crackers w/lf spread cheese

Dinner: Red pepper pasta, salad, bread

Snack: 1/2 cupcake, vitamin water

Calories: 1700

Exercise: Bike 2 miles (my back is hurting or I would have done more, I think it hurts because I’m sitting at the computer so long due to my devotion to my job)

I might have found my cheery self. She hides in the laundry room sometimes. I forgot that.